《BINGBIAN病变》 Artist: 鞠文娴 (JU Wenxian) & Deepain Music video: YouTube Purchase: Spotify, Google Play

Alternative versions: Shiyu (YouTube, Google Play), K.D. (QQ), Cubi (original ver.) (Google Play)

Verse 1 鞠文娴 (JU Wenxian): 有天我睡醒看到我的身边没有你 Some days I wake up and find that you’re not by my side 在我的右边是你曾经喜欢的玩具 On my right are all the toys you used to like 可当我站起身来在房间里寻找你 But when I get up and look around the room for you 留下的只有带着你味道的一封信 Left behind is only a letter with your scent 就在昨天还一起看我们的照片 Just yesterday we were looking at our photos 可现在让我感觉像烂剧里的主演 But now I feel like I’m an actor in a bad drama 为什么这种事情会发生在我身边 Why must these things happen around me 是不是老天没能看到对你的疯癫 Maybe God can’t see that I’m crazy for you

还想着 创造你的宇宙 Still thinking about making your universe 但现在 已经被我清空 But now it’s been emptied by me 你让我 整个人都冰冻 You make my entire body freeze 还怎么 再次为你心动 How can my heart again beat for you? Wake me up 不是你的意愿 “Wake me up” isn’t your wish 离开我 开始新的起点 Leave me, start anew 可能我 还会对你贪恋 Maybe I’ll still cling to you 谁让你 曾经让我疯癫 Who let you once make me crazy

Deepain: 疯癫 那也是过去的画面 Craziness…that’s also a scene in the past 看往后的几天 我猜你也不会出现 Looking at the next few days, I think you won’t appear 我回想这几年 就像是要命的病变 Thinking back over these few years, they were like deadly lesions 你可能听不见 来自他对你的挂念 You maybe can’t hear the concern coming from him

可能有点累 Maybe I’m a little tired 觉得对不对这是第几次在为你宿醉 Am I right? Hung over thinking about you for the n^th time 没了我肩膀 Without my shoulder 你在谁身旁买的礼物变成了灰 Whoever you’re with, the gifts you buy turn into dust 曾经我多想 Once I really thought 把你变漂亮 看着别人羡慕你的模样 I’d make you beautiful, seeing other people envy your appearance 没关系 有小熊陪着你看月亮 Whatever, there’s Ursa Minor to watch the moon with you

鞠文娴 (JU Wenxian): 我已经看到跟你断电的过程 I already see the process of cutting power to you 但我假装看不见 But I pretend I can’t 是不是要我变得像个厉鬼 Perhaps only if I became a devil 才能进入你的世界 Could I enter your world 为什么不说再见 Why don’t you say good-bye 我猜你应该是不小心的忘记 I guess it’s because you already carelessly forgot 都无所谓也有点累 It’s all whatever, I’m a little tired 也可以开始新的记忆 And I can begin new memories

Verse 1 repeats

Deepain: 我不能够停止啊 I can’t bring myself to stop 这些年我对你的疯癫 The craziness I’ve felt for you these few years 还会戴上那条围巾吗 Do you still wear that scarf? 在每个寒风刺骨的冬天 In every bone-chilling wind of winter 还有每次送你在回家的路上 And every time we were on the road taking you home 不经意间触碰到你的手 Accidentally touching your hand 你穿裙子眨眼睛 望着我 You were wearing a skirt, batting your eyes at me 那是让我心动的瞬间 Those moments made my heart beat

鞠文娴 (JU Wenxian): 那条十字路口 That crossroads 始终有你身上的气味 From beginning to end had your scent 车水马龙过后的路灯下的身影 The figure left by the traffic light after the endless stream of cars passes 又会是谁 Who could it be? 他想说我真的 He wanted to say, “I really 喜欢你但是每次欲言又闭嘴 like you”, but every time hesitated and fell silent¹ 那时荒唐的男孩 The ridiculous boy of that time 又浑浊了几岁 It’s muddy how hold he was

Verse 1 repeats

Alternate Version (Cubi/Aydo$)

Cubi: 有天我睡醒看到我的身边没有你 Some days I wake up and find that you’re not by my side 在我的右边是你曾经喜欢的玩具 On my right are the toys you used to like 可当我站起身来在房间里寻找你 But when I get up and look around the room for you 留下的只有带着你味道的一封信 Left behind is only a letter with your scent 就在昨天还一起看我们的照片 Just yesterday we were looking at our photos 可现在让我感觉像烂剧里的主演 But now I feel like I’m an actor in a bad drama 为什么这种事情会发生在我身边 Why must these things happen around me 是不是老天没能看到对你的疯癫 Maybe God can’t see that I’m crazy towards you

还想着 创造你的宇宙 I still want to create your world 但现在 已经被我清空 But now it’s been emptied by me 你让我 整个人都冰冻 You make my entire body freeze 还怎么 再次为你心动 How can my heart again beat for you? Wake up me 不是你的意愿 “Wake me up” isn’t your wish 离开我 开始新的起点 Leave me, start anew 可能我 还会对你贪恋 Maybe I’ll still cling to you 谁让你 曾经让我疯癫 Who let you once make me crazy

疯癫 那也是过去的画面 Craziness…that’s also a scene in the past 看往后的几天 我猜你也不会出现 Looking at the next few days, I think you won’t appear 我回想这几年 就像是要命的病变 Thinking back over these few years, they were like deadly lesions 你可能听不见 来自他Cubi的挂念 You maybe can’t hear the concern coming from Cubi

可能有点累 Maybe I’m a little tired 觉得对不对这是第几次在为你宿醉 Am I right? Hung over thinking about you for the nth time 没了我肩膀 Without my shoulder 你在谁身旁买的礼物变成了灰 Whoever you’re with, the gifts you buy turn into dust 曾经我多想 Once I really thought 把你变漂亮 看着别人羡慕你的模样 I’d make you beautiful, seeing other people envy your appearance 没关系 有小熊陪Cubi看月亮 Whatever, there’s Xiong to watch the moon with Cubi

我已经看到跟你断电的过程 I already see the process of cutting power to you 但我假装看不见 But I pretend I can’t 是不是要我变得像个厉鬼 Perhaps only if I became a devil 才能进入你的世界 Could I enter your world 为什么不说再见 Why don’t you say good-bye 我猜你应该是不小心的忘记 I guess it’s because you already carelessly forgot

Verse 1 repeats

Aydo$: 又吵了好几回 Again we fought a bunch 你身边又换了谁 By your side you’ve changed to a new person 别再争是谁对 Let’s not fight again about who’s right 这幸福我不配 This happiness I don’t deserve

又做了好几次 Again we did it a bunch 愤怒却化成了满地的卫生纸 Anger became a floor full of toilet paper 你深夜发文字 Late at night you send me words 不跟你和好 真的不是我自私 Not being with you is great / It’s not me that’s being selfish

是谁的问题 但谁都没有问仔细 Whose problem is it? But nobody asks carefully 但你的呼吸 会冲进我的灵魂里 But your breath rushes into my soul 你总是在哭泣 嘴边总挂着对不起 You always were crying / “I’m sorry” was always hanging by your mouth 但你已不是你 我选择放弃 But you say it’s not you / I choose to let go

嘴角的泪滴 你细声低语 Tears drip onto the corner of your mouth, you quietly mutter 我想抱住你 I want to embrace you 沉闷的雨滴 敲击我心里 Muffled raindrops pound in my heart 转身离开你 Turn around and leave you 嘴角的泪滴 你细声低语 Tears drip onto the corner of your mouth, you quietly mutter 我想抱住你 I want to embrace you 沉闷的泪滴 敲击我心里 Muffled tears pound in my heart 转身离开你 Turn around and leave you

有天我睡醒看到我的身边没有你 Some days I wake up and find that you’re not by my side 在我的右边是你曾今喜欢的玩具 On my right are the toys you used to like 可当我站起身来在房间里寻找你 But when I get up and look around the room for you…